Well this might be my last blog for a while. I’m not sure if I’m going to drop out of the IMBC or not. A lot of shit has happened in the past day and I don’t know if I can continue. It just so happens that the topic of the days for yesterday, today and tomorrow just happen to go with what has happened. I find it strangely ironic. So who knows how this is all going to turn out.
My grandma died yesterday at 1:15. She was 82 years old and we have been expecting this for a long as time. She has been in an Alzheimer facility for the past 16 years. She was the one who raised me for the first 7 years of my life since my dad was always out working and my fucking mom loved her god damn dogs more than her kids and was always at fucking dog shows all the god damn time.
I took my dad over to where she is going to be burned and buried. We got most of the paperwork finished and viewed her body. I cried my ass off the entire time we were there. I’m an asshole but I can’t hold back tears for something like that. I mean damn she raised me and I barely got to know her. Plus with Alzheimer’s even if I would visit her she would never know who I was. She is somewhere else though chilling with my granddad who I got to meet for the first time today. Even if he is in a can beneath the ground it’s still nice to know where he is.
God I’m tearing up just writing this. That’s all I can write. I don’t want to end up crying for another three hours. I need a hug.
April 12th, 2007
Zombie Jesus
April 12, 2007 at 11:50 pm
[[[[hug]]]] you have my deepest sympathies hun.
April 13, 2007 at 2:31 am
Sorry to hear that.