Well today’s another day it seems. We finally got everything finished paperwork wise for my granny and got a date set for when we are getting the family together. It’s going to end with a fight but at this point I don’t care too much. Seeing my dad and his brother talking is a wonder in itself so I’m not going to say anything that will stop that. Renn Faire is this weekend but I’m not going to go. I couldn’t get work off but I just can’t be around all the people right now. I would just end up just getting drunk and crying. I’m a very bad drunk either being super loud and holding up trees, or way too emotional. Right now I think the emotional would win instead of the asshole drunk.
Anyone that actually reads this and that I haven’t thanked then I thank you now. I know I haven’t talked to anyone about it but it’s just hard for me. I know that other people have gone through it too, but fuck them this is my blog and ill be as self centered as I want to. If it was just about anyone else who died I would have been better off but not her. God I’m just babbling on again.
I couldn’t find my black bandana so I used a piece of black duck clothe for a band. Parentally I’m the only person whose family goes back far enough that still does this. Got plenty of looks at school. Oh well, least they didn’t tell all the damn teachers like they did for some other girl. I really don’t want to have to deal with all of them no matter how much I actually like my teachers.
Well for now the blog is just going to turn into whatever instead of hate based. I’m too depressed to hate right now. Ill covers the topic of the day when I can and such when I can think of something.
So today’s topic is “If you could pick a way to die, what would it be?” Honestly I would like to be shot in the face in the middle of a crowd by some random guy who has been stalking me for the past fifteen years. Not all that sure why but it just seems like an interesting way to go.
What I don’t want to happen to me is to get Alzheimer’s like my granny. That is the worst thing that could happen to anyone I think. I would rather wish cancer on people than have them get Alzheimer’s. I know that’s fucked but if you have seen someone with it you would know what I’m talking about.
Just another quick one tonight. Stay tuned.
April 13th, 2007
Zombie Jesus
